Feb 19: It's not a Break-Up Day

Making jealous to your love one is not a big deal. Making others jealous of your love one is. You never know the wave of jealousy that you are creating for your love-one may kill the relationship. It’s never a year, nor a month, nor a day, nor an hour, nor a minute, nor a second that end the relationship which was build in 100s of days. It’s just the moment that may destroy your house full of love and happiness, burning down with the tears and frustration.  It’s is always a moment to destroy and years to build. So, it’s on you that you give your moment to build it or destroy it.

             
I always question myself that why i loved you? Why my mind starting thinking of you? Why my heart starting beating for you?  Why?? The question always trigger to my mind. WHY?? I’m unknown of the facts that why i fell in love with you. Did i fall in love with you or time made me started loving you. I’m dilemma; I’m out of my mind. But somewhere deep in my heart i feel the love of you. Loneliness of being without you kills somewhere in my heart. But still I’m unaware of moment when i fell in love with you. I can’t presume the time that made me fell. But why i was showing my desperate feeling towards you in the early days of our love life. Isn't that love? Or that was just the infatuation that occurs to me. Or it’s just the beauty of body that dragged me towards you. There are 100s of question revolving over my head. I neither can run away from that nor i can answer them back. Besides all, i just know and i’m very clear that i want you to be happy and better. That doesn't mean that i want new one on you. I still want you to be you with better piece of carve on you.

              I may not be able to answer your question that, “Didn't you love just the way i’m?” I may fail to justify what i actually mean when i mean better you. The “You” is always a “You” what i want. Only wish to make it Better “You”. If I’m not able to make “You” as “Better You” that what’s the point of living with you.  Every lover want their love-one to be better and better always that doesn't they don’t love the real one. Being self doesn't mean growing your awful and childish behavior when you are grown up. Being self means being true to your heart and improving yourself as the world and your concern-one wants to see you. We always have to live our own life by our own that doesn't mean you should forget those days and moments when many of your near one lived for you. If they did for you then you also have obligation for doing to them.

          You can’t dream your life as other did. They are different and we are different.  They didn't cry together as we did, they didn't laugh together as we did, they didn't fight as we did, they didn't feel the same warmness that we felt, they didn't love the way we did. They didn't do the way we did; we didn't do the way they did.  Both of us did the same, as we, they also loved each other but they are they and we are we.

               If marriage is the end of our love then i never loved you. It’s just the major part of our society, not the major one of my love. Living happily with you is only major things of mine. That’s doesn't mean I’m running away from the fact that one day we have to marry. I will, surely i will, i always dream of it, i always think of it that doesn't mean i always have to speak of it. Talking about this we can’t forget the moment where we started our love with no-hope of being together for long or marrying each other. Today we are growing; being together with each other for eternity has rotten in our heart badly. We started with zero chance of marriage and we are here with 99 today. But still you are lingering with remaining 1 then I’m sorry. I can lie with me but can’t lie with you. 1 % is something that i always keep until i finish the game. But still i want you to stay; i want you to love more. I don’t want to break up the relationship and it’s not a Break-Up day too. 

मोडेल, प्याज, पेट्रोल र फेसबुक

"फेसबुकमा त जो पनि राम्री हुन्छन नि, अरुको कुरा किन गर्नु पर्यो, तेरो प्रोफाइल पिक्चर हेर्न न, जोनिलिबर जस्तो तेरो मुख, त्यहाँ कस्तो राम्रो देखएको छस्"  खितिति हास्दै सुरेनले भन्यो !
मैले झर्किदै भने, "साला, आफ्नो मुख हेरेको छस्, कुकुरले मुते जस्तो छ, अरुलाई भन्छ" मैले जोड्दै भने, "अलिक गोरो, हल्का भुडी र निदारमा ताग नभएको भए, तेरो दाई आझ हलिउडमा हुन्थियो ! जसलाई पनि आफु जस्तो सोच्छ यार! हुने त दोष तेरो होइन, जति बुद्धि छ त्यति नै बोल्ने त हो !"
अघि देखि चिलाएको नाक भित्र चोरी औलाले कोटाएर रौ सहितको सिगान निकाली, बुढी र चोरि औलाले डल्लो बनाएर उ तिर फाल्दै भने, " लाऊ खा, तैले जे भने पनि, केटी चाही त्यो खतरा नै हो के, फिगर हेर्न कस्तो बबाल छ !" अस्तिनै  फेसबुकबाट इ-फोनमा इस्क्रिन शर्ट लिएको फोटो देखाउदै भने, "मोडेल नै होला के यो केटी"
"ह्या कति एउटै कुरा गर्रा, आझकल त जस्ता तोर्पे केटी पनि मोडेल भाछ्न् नि, भए-नभए पनि फेसबुकमा वर्किङ्ग एज मोडेल लेख्थे भो नि कसलाई के त, मागेको DSLR ले एक-दुई फोटो लियो अनि इडिट गरी राख्दिए पछि, त जस्ता बोकालाई गुफ्फ़ दिन पुगी हाल्यो नि" पसले तिर हेर्दै भन्यो "दाई २ ओटा दुधको चिया"
एकछिनमा चिया पनि आयो, पसले पनि हाम्रो कुरा सुनेर मुसु-मुसु हास्दै थियो ! मैले सोधे, "दाई चना छ?"
"चना-समोसा-चिया बेच्ने ठाउँमा चना नभएर मोडेल हुन्छन त" मलाई जिस्कौदै भन्यो !
"मोडेल भएको भए त घर नै यहि हुन्थियो नि हाम्रो, सन्चै दाई तो कपडा पसलकी मैया चाही कहाँ गइन् ह" मैले चनाको पिलेट समात्दै भने !
"कहाँ हुनु नि, पसलको शाहुको छोराले बितेछ नि, देउसी सटर लगाएर बस्थे" दाईले हास्दै भने
"लाऊ हेर त सुरेन तेरो बुढीलाई त भएछ नि तेसैले त" मैले थपे !
"तेरो बुढी होला नि, बोका तै नै छस्" दाईतिर चनाको पिलेट देखाउदै सुरेनले भन्यो, "खोइ त थोरै प्याज काटेर रख्दिनु त"
"ह्या भाई पनि १० रुपियाको चनामा २० रुपियाको प्याज राख्ने हो क्या" दाईले दिक्क मान्दै भने "हेर भाई पहिले प्याज काट्दा आसु आऊथियो, अहिले किन्दा आउछ ! ११० रुपिया किलो भाको छ !"
"होर, खोइ त फेसबुकमा खाई कहिँ अपडेट आएको छैन त त्यस्तो, पेट्रोलमा ३ रुपिया बढ्दा त वाल नै भरिने गरी लेख्ने केटाहरुले, २०को प्याज ११० हुदा सम्म कहिँ छैन त" मैले छक्क पर्दै भने !
"त मुला कुरै बुझ्दैनस, तिनीहरुले कहाँ पेट्रोल बढेको दुखले इस्टाटस लेखेका हुन त, बाइक छ भनेर सुनाएको हुन् नि, अब प्याज मेरो घरमा भनेर सुनाउने कुरा भएन त्यसैले लेखेनन् नि" सुरेनले चियामा लगएको तर गिलासको टुप्पो माथि राख्दै भन्यो !

राज ३

In the search of her happiness

त्यो दिन भेट्ने कुरा हाम्रो पहिले नै तहे भईसकेको थियो | उनको अफिसको पहिलो दिन थियो आझ, अफिसमा सानो इस्कट लगाउने पर्ने भएकाले घर पुगेर कपडा फेरी छिटै आउछु भनेकी थिन् ! मेरो अफिस र उनको माइक्रो इस्ट्प दुवै टुरिजम बोड नजिक थियो ! त्यसैले त्यहि भेट्ने निधो गरेका थियौ ! 

यो हाम्रो दोस्रो भेट थियो, त्यो भन्दा पहिले मैले उनलाई हिजो भेटेको थियो ! उनी आफ्नी बहिनीसंग आएकी थिन ! बहिनीले हामीलाई बीचमा छोडेर गएर मलाई निकै ठुलो गुण लगाएकी थिन् !  भद्रकालीको आकासे पुलमा उनले मलाई दाई भनि सम्बोधन गरिन् ! त्यो भन्दा पहिले हजुर-हजुर भन्दै कुरा गरेकी थिन् ! उनको मुखबाट मलाई दाई भने शब्द सुन्ने बितिकै मेरो हात उनी माथि उठ्यो अनि आफैलाई आत्माग्लानी भो, मन-मनै आफैलाई थुके, उनी मलाई हेरिरहिन ! पहिलो भेटमा नै केटी माथि हात उठाउने कस्तो लाज पचेको पुरुष रहिछ भनेर सोच्दै थिन होला ! मैले आफ्नो गालामा १-२ थप्पड आफै हने अनि कान रातो नहुन्जेल समातेर बाटो भरि SORRY भन्दै हिडे ! बाटोको सबै मान्छेले हामीलाई हरे पछि, उनले मेरो हात तानिन् ! एक्कासी मेरो मनमा किन कोरोधको जावला फुटेको थियो उनले दाई भन्दा मलाई नै थाहा छैन ! घर पुगेपछि उनले मलाई मय्सेज पठाईन्, "बहिनीलाई हजुर राम्रो लग्यो रे", सायद बहिनीलाई दिदीको गाला तातेको थाहा रहिन्छ क्यारे !  मैले पनि पठाए "बहिनीलाई थान्क येउ भनिदेउ, मेरो तर्फ़बाट उनलाई डेरी-मिल्क" तर त्यस पछि भने मेरो ति बहिनीसंग कहिले पनि भेट भएन,  डेरी-मिल्कको आझसम्म पनि ऋणी छु ! बहिनीलाई राम्रो लाग्नुमा मलाई कहिँ उत्साह थिएन, दिदीलाई राम्रो लग्यो कि लागेन भने मात्रै मेरो इच्छाको बिषय थियो ! उनले पनि भनिनन्, मैले पनि सोध्ने आट गरिन ! 

उनी कहिँ बेरमा नै त्यहाँ आइपुगिन अनि मुसुक्क हासेर 'हाई'  भन्दै नजिक आईन् ! हामी त्यहाँबाट हिड्यौ, मैले बीचमा नै सोधे, "कहाँ जाने त?" मलाई पहिले देखि नै रेस्टुरेन्टमा बसेर प्रेम पोखेको मन पर्दैन थियो, त्यसैले सुरुमा आफैले भने रेस्टुरेन्टमा पनि के जानु ! अस्तिनै उनले त्रि-चन्द्र कलेज घुम्ने फोनमा इच्छा देखाएकी थिन्, त्यसैले मन-मनै उनलाई त्रि-चन्द्र कलेज घुमाउनु पर्ला भनेर सोचेको थिए ! उनको कहिँ प्रतिक्रिया नआए पछि मैले फेरी सोधे, "घरमा के भनेर आयौ नि?",

"साथी सँग फिल्म हेर्न जान्छु भनेर हिंडेकी थिए" ! उनले भनिन् 

मैले फेरी थपे, "त्यसो भए घरमा late night बहिर बस्नु दिनुहुन्छ !"  

"होइन गाली गर्नु हुन्छ, अहिले डाडी घर नभएर मात्रै हो" उन्ले उत्तर दिन् 

मैले फेरी सोधे, "डाडी कहाँ हुनुहुन्छ त?"

"दुबाई" उनले यति मात्रै भनिन् ! पछि पो थाहा भो उनका बा अफघानिस्तानको घरका चुलोमा रोटी सक्दा रहेछन ! घरमा कसैले बा कहाँ छन् भनि सोध्यो भने दुबाई भन्नु भनेर उनलाई पाठ पढाएका रहिछन् !

मैले उस्किदै सोधे, "त्यसो भए घर ढिलो जादा पनि हुन्छ?"

उनले एक शब्द मात्रै बोलिन्, "ठिकै"

यसो मोबाइल निकालेर समय हेरे, ५:५० भएको रहिछ ! हामी रत्न पार्कको आकासे पुलमा हिडिरहेका थियौ, मैले भने, "१० मिनट बाकी रहिछ, evening show सुरु हुन जय नेपाल जाऊ न त" 

हामीले हतार-हतार गर्दै आखाले मुस्कान साट्दै हल पुग्यौ ! बूकिंग गरेको मान्छे नआउने भएपछि लास्टको २ सिट हामीले पायौ ! म निकै हर्षित भए, लास्टको सिट पाएर होइन उनको इच्छा पूरा गर्नु पाउदा ! धेरै पहिले उनले फस्बुकको च्याट भनेकी थिन, "मलाई राती लास्ट सिटमा बसेर फिल्म हेर्न क्या इच्छा छ" 

आझ जानी-नजानी उनको इच्छा पूरा भएको थियो तर उनलाई भने त्यसको अत्तो-पत्तो नै थिएन ! मलाई पनि थाहा दिन्न मन लागेन ! फिल्मको नाम "राज ३", सुन्दै कस्तो लाग्ने, के-कन राजै-राजले भरिए जस्तो !

फिल्ममा राज थियो थिएन मलाई अत्तो-पत्तो नै भएन, मेरो आखा उनको मुस्कानको राज खोज्नै बेस्त थियो ! मानौ उनको मुखलाई मेरो आखाको प्रोजेक्टरले इस्क्रिन बनाएको थियो !

फुटेको चस्मा

Collection of फुटेको चस्मा of mine from past 5 years (2008-2013)

दिन भरि बिरामी भई ढलेको मुढो जस्तै निर्जीव भएर सुतिरह्दा पनि उनको एक चोटी पनि कल-माय्सेज कहिँ  आएन | मलाई रिस उठ्नु त शोभाभिक नै थियो | सिरानी छेउको मोबाईल टिपी पनि मैले निरासा पोक्दै माय्सेज गरे "तिमीले मेरो साचो-बिसन्चोको ख्याल नगरे पनि म भने सधै गरिनै रहन्छु, राम्रो संग पढ है " ! 

यस्तो विधुतिय प्रेम-पत्र पठाए पछि, माफी सहित मायाले भरीपूर्ण माय्सेज रिप्लाईमा आउला भनि सोच्नु मेरो गल्ती थिएन | मैले सोचे जस्तै गरी केहि छेडमा रिप्लाई पनि आयो | पहिलो दुई शब्दमा नै माफी र माया दुवै पोखिएको थियो | सारै खुशी र मनमा उनको मायाको घुर्की लगाउदै आगाडी पढ्न लागे | सबै पढी सके पछि आगाडी किन पढेछु पनि आफ्नो माथि नै घिर्ड़ा लग्न लग्यो ! मनमा नै दुखेर आयो, पहिलो दुई शब्दमा नै माफी र माया एकै चोटी पाएर बाघ जस्तो फुलेको मेरो मन एक्कासी पानीमा रुझेको मुसा जस्तो हुन पुग्यो |  फरक यति मात्र थियो कि त्यहाँ आगाडी माया भन्दा बढी कोरोध थियो | उनले लेखेकी थिन, "सरी, लब येउ ! तैले अरु ज सोचे पनि सोच, मलाई मतलब छैन, जति माया गरे पनि नदेख्ने निस्टुरी पुरुष जात" | उनले सारै पुरुष जतिलै नै गाली गरेकी थिन, तर मनमा भने मलाई अझै पनि विश्वास लागेको थिएन | बिरामी भएर तितो गोली खाएको बेला त उनले यस्तो भन्नु नपर्ने, आफ्नो आखालाई नै दोषी ठहराए अनि छेउमा भएको चस्मा खोज्न लागे | चस्मा के समातेको मात्रै थिए, आमाले सिसाको ठुलो गिलासमा दुध लिएर ढोका खोलेको धाय्म र चस्माको फ्रेम फुटेको पिट दुवै आवाज मेरो कानमा गुञ्जियो | आमाले लाऊ बाबु दुध खाऊ भनेको शब्द मुखबाट बाहिर के निस्कियो थियो, आमाले झिझिदै  भनिन, कस्तो हुस्सु हुनसकेको बाबु त अस्ति भखर तेत्रो पैसा खर्च गरेर बनेको चस्मा दुई दिन हुन नपाउदै फुटालिस् है | साचो कुरो चाही त्यो चस्मा मेरी पहिलेकी प्रेमिकाले बनाई दिएकी थिन, आझ सम्मकै सबै भन्दा बलियो चस्मा हुन पुग्यो त्यो मेरो | उनले मलाई छोडे पछि उनको चिनो भएर बसेको थियो त्यो चस्मा मलाई | उनले छोडेर पनि अर्की संग एक वर्ष बिताई सकेको थिए मैले, निकै बिलियो रहेछ उनले माया बनाई दिएको त्यो चस्मा |  आमाले त्यस माथि कुरा थप्दै भनिन, भोलि बिहान कलेज पढाउनु जानु छ कसरी पढाउछस | तलाई मैले भनेको होइन सधै एउटा extra चस्मा बना भनेर हेर भोलिको कलेज छ, चस्मा नलाई कहिँ देखदैन यसले | आमा रिसाउनु सामान्य नै थियो सधै दुई ओटा चस्मा बनाउछु भनेर एउटाको पैसा अरुनै के-के गरि सिधाउथे | 

Rest in Peace - My love Chulbuli

कति रिसाएको होला चुल्बुल

मारिस है भनि मेरी चुल्बुली

उ मान्छे भएको भए

कुटी कुटी निकल्थियो होला मेरो काचुली

पहिले को नै थियो र उसको लागी चुल्बुली

मिलाई दिने मै लमीले गरे मन-परी

दुई मुटुलाई एक ठाउँ लाउने

मेरै भयो सोच जति

भगवानले पनि धिकर्दौ होलान

भनि गर्यो मोरोले के गल्ती

रुन्छ आझ मेरो मन

सम्झी ति मेरी मनकी प्यारी

सधै खेल्थिन कहि झिजो नमानी

कसलाई बोलाऊ अब म छोरी भनि

मर्ने बाउ मै नै भए अपराधी

माफ गर चुल्बुल म निष्ठुरीलाई

बचाउन सकिन तिम्रो बुढी चुल्बुलीलाई

उसको रिक्तता भन्दा

के ठुलो दिन्छौ र  सजाए मलाई

मन बुझौ चुल्बुल

बाउले पनि छोरी गुमायो भनि

तिम्रो पिडामा आसु बगाउने

यो अपराधी पनि छ भनि

आकाशको तारा भईन तिम्री चुल्बुली

हेर्नु त्यहि चम्किलो तारा हो भनि चुल्बुली

माफ गर्नु गल्ती भो यसपाली

तिम्रो चुल्बुलीलाई मर्नु थिएन मेरो नियति

कोसिस गर्दा-गर्दै सकेनन

ति  सेतो कोट लगाउने जगिरी

I'm Sorry, She is down भनि

छोपी दिए आखा, मरि भनि चुल्बुली 

रोप्ने छु गुलाबको फुल

मानी यही फुल भईन चुल्बुली

लामो बिदा गईन भनि चुल्बुली

चुल्बुल संग चुल्बुल-चुल्बुल गर्ने तिम्रो-मेरो चुल्बुली

Green Card

Art is made by BASW 2nd Year student of St. Xavier's College

In the 83rd Plenary meeting on 17 December 1999, United Nation declared 12 August as the International Youth Day on the recommendation of World Conference of Ministers Responsible for Youth (Lisbon, 8-12 August 1998) by the United Nations General Assembly 54/120 resolution. While world is celebrating International Youth Day 2013 with theme  "Youth Migration: Moving Development Forward" (Youth Migration was not among 15 priority list of World Programme of Youth on Action adopted UN General Assembly on the 10th Anniversary of Youth Year) condition of Youth is still the same and even worst than before. One of the major reason for youth migration is due to lack of proper employment opportunities in their origin country. Lets see the status of Youth of World to Nepal. 

 Contradictory with growing rate of Youth Unemployment, it was the major priority of World Programme of Youth on Action. 

Talking about Nepal, Problem related to youth unemployment is burning issue and will be more acute in the next decade as International Labor Organization (ILO) shows youth unemployment rate growth by 2.1 % per year. According to the findings "Report on the Nepal Labor Force Survey" published by the Department of Statistics, Nepal in 2008, a large number of young people are semi unemployed and unemployed. In Nepal, more than 4 million youth are totally unemployed and number is still increasing. Nearly 49.9 percent urban youth and 32.2 percent rural youth are unemployed. When the youth become unemployed in rural areas then they migrate to urban areas in search of job which makes 80% of Urban Youth population unemployed. Due to lack of employment opportunities. From the year 1993-1994 till 2004 December, it is found that total of migrant is 528071 (Source : Ministry of Labour and Transport Management, Labour and Employment Promotion Department). The number may be double at this time. 

Some World's Youth and Employment facts:

• There are 1.2 billion youth in the world aged between 15 and 24. 87% of youth live in developing countries.

• Among 202 million unemployed, youth makes 40% of world's unemployed with the age bar (15-24). (Just imagine if the age bar of youth in International Arena was like Nepal then what would be the condition - Joke Apart)

• In 2011, Youth risk for being unemployment was 3 times than adult.

• A total of 357.7 million youth were not in education, employment, or training (NEET) in 2010 and number is increasing rapidly. Among them 341 million was from developing countries.

• 1.52 billion people - seven times more the number of unemployed are estimated to be invulnerable employment in 2011. 

Life in Street

Street Kid sleeping on Footpath of Sundhara in Rainy Day.

The Child Workers in Nepal (CWIN), conducted a survey of 100 street children in 1990, and claimed that there were 500 such children in Kathmandu (CWIN 1990). In 1993, three years after the first survey, CWIN claimed that this figure had increased by three times and reached 1500 (Pradhan 1993). At the same time, CWIN also claimed that the number of street children nation-wide in Nepal was 5000. 

On today's date, there are hundred of organizations working for street children, many colleges' and schools' practical field work are street children these days. In the name of Corporate Social Responsibility (CSR), hundreds of companies provide food-clothes for a day and publish their philanthropy in the headlines of National Newspaper with group pose picture. Many people think that still number of street children is not drastically change as it has to be. There are many hidden reason behind this facts: 

1. Every year around 500 children come to street of Kathmandu from several districts (CWIN, 2006). With this data, total number of street children who have been to street of Kathmandu will be almost 10,000 from 1993-2013. As before we don't find street children in every junction of Kathmandu. There are few place like Koteshwor, Durbar Marg, Pasupati, Basantapur, Mahankal where we find street children these days. Recent survey on 2013 by Center for Child Welfare Board (CCWB) has found total number of children in street of Kathmandu is 793. Number has definitely changed with the time and program of different NGOs but not exactly as expected by common people to whom street kids ask money for food. 

2. The other main reason for not having drastic change is lack of program from government. Government don't have any program for the street children yet. Without the initiatives of government and state concerned authorities it is near to impossible to eradicate street children. 

3. Many non-governmental organizations (NGOs) has similar and common program for street children. Due to the redundant in the NGOs' programs, children got choice to leave one organization and go into another if social worker don't do according to their wish and demand. 

4. Street children as so attached with major four things - Money, Drugs, Peer Group (Gangs) and Freedom in their life. They always desire to have that, either they are in NGOs centre or in street. NGOs never can provided those things in its center and instead of that along with therapy they provide education, health, food, shelter, clothes etc which is not the priority of street kids.    

5. Lack of stronger family background street children belong to is another problem. Street Children are either re-integrated or rehabilitated. Those who are re-integrated in the family come back to street due the same reason why they came before. NGOs don't have exact project for the street children family to strength them. According to research conducted in Kathmandu District by myself on 2012, it was found that more than 50% who are re-integrated come to street again. They don't come alone but bring other village boys in the street of city. 

Though we are delay but we are not diminish. We may be in wrong way but still we are walking for destiny. If NGOs in collaboration with Government come with effective program for street children within few years we will not find street kids in street. Only thing is we need to collaborate and feel the change in us.

Private School Bus : No Longer Safe Drive

Do you agree to travel in fully packed bus standing for whole month paying a taxi fare amount? I guess no one of us is so stupid to make that foolish decision but what if you don’t have any option then being fool. Everyday thousands of students of private (so-called) schools are force to travel in high packed bus paying handsome money for the shareholder belly.

During a campaign launched by the Metropolitan Traffic Police Division (MTPD), they found the shocking result that private school vehicles had been carrying students thrice their capacity, were mostly of them are as old as 40 years. The most shocking things is that majority of Mafia Schools don’t have their own bus. They hire all the old engine bus which is always in worried to catch their route after dropping children.

Sushmita Sharma (name changed) student of class 9 from so-called reputed school said that “My home is at last bus stop which is Samakhushi. Driver and helper forced me to drop at Machapokhari saying that there is traffic jam in Gangobhu and they are getting late for their route time. I always had to pay extra money to go by local bus from there.”

 Do you think they drive slowly and safely when they are in hurry to get their que? Children life in such bus is in dilemma. We never know when our children gone face the accident. There is hundreds of problem relating with this issue. Why government and concerned authorities are quiet when public buses are used in private schools? There is no difference of having black and red plate in the bus. If colours difference can’t make justice.

School are promoting old buses with low cost contract to make more money which is not only affecting environment but also killing the lots of employment opportunities of new driver and helper. Apart from that, we are very well known about attitude of majority of bus driver and helper in public bus. The way the talk and behave with the people is not digestible for us then how can we think they are taking our children safely to school. High trend of using child labour in public buses and those buses are been used to carry the school student can affect the children mentality towards their future.

Furthermore, children are prone to harassment and abuse by the helper which is never the concern of school administration. Suman Dangol (name changed) said that “Helper always used to ask me number of my friend; he often used to touch her back while getting in-out of bus and try to flirt with her too. Its not only with her, it happened with most of girls.”

Reporting it to school administration is also useless; they can’t fire helper because they only hire bus for few hours. Lots of school bus tries to escape saying they send their own teacher in every bus but does he/she goes till last stop. They don’t.

The government has formed Institutional Schools Operation Criteria Recommending Commi-ttee (ISOCRC), a nine-member committee to develop criteria for operating private schools and recommend on various issues related to them but as other committees made in Nepal it’s till the tea-table and paper only. If Nepal Government and Private Schools’ Association will not make strict policy and effective implementation in this issue then it will create more serious problem among school going students. 

15 Tweets on Women

1. “Hoes Want Attention, Women Want Respect.” – Real Popular
2. "There needs to be greater investment into the hands of women to catalyze change" – UN Women
3. “The mobile phone gender gap is 300 million women - closing gap for this empowering tech is a priority” – Global Development
4. “Empowering women farmers can improve food production by 30% which is enough to feed 150 mil people” - Raj Shah is the Administrator of the U.S. Agency for International Development (USAID).
5. "When it comes to women, they don't get rights. They get restrictions." -- Sen. Frank Lautenberg
6. “Women aren't a sleeping giant, we've been here. Now we're just mad” – Advocates for Youth
7. We're getting ready to celebrate Int'l Women's Day on March 8. 2012 theme: "Connecting Girls, Inspiring Futures” - Care USA
8. “Globally, it's estimated that women provide 85-90% of the time spent on household food preparation” – Oxfam International
9. "When women have voice & representation, change follows"- Michelle Bachelet
10. “More women graduate from Saudi universities than men, but they make up less than 15% of workforce.” – Ruwayda Mustafah, British-Kurdish writer & angry feminist. 
11. “In China, women demand more public toilets and went for Protest” – Nick Kristof, New York Times columnist, two-time Pulitzer Prize winner
12. “Women Still Earn Less Than Men at Every Education Level: No matter what they studied or which field they work in” - Colin Rooney
13. “Never underestimate the power of a woman's intuition. Some women can recognize game before you even play it.” - Tumblr
14. “50% of women who die from homicides worldwide are killed by their current/former husbands/ partners” - The Pixel Project
15. “Gossiping has positive effects on women, it elevates levels of progesterone, a hormone that reduces stress and feels good.” – Uber Facts

Motivation Letter

Dear Sir / madam,

I, Sagar Gyawali, highly-driven and talented young professional in the field of Social issues seeking a position in the Youth Activist Leadership Council. This position, I feel, will offer opportunities for advancement and growth in my career. I currently hold a Bachelor of Social Work degree from St. Xavier’s College, Maitighar, Kathmandu.

                 I have worked in the field of social advocacy and counseling in a community and clinical setting. My experience at social centers and treatment facilities has allowed me to build knowledge of physical, emotional and psycho-social needs. 

                                             Furthermore, I have spearheaded case evaluations, psychological profiles and treatment planning for patients and their families under the city's counseling program. My extensive experience includes mitigating the needs of the homeless under the welfare service, handling victims of social needs and monitoring their health treatment. During these experiences, I have learned the importance of strategic planning, policy development while in close collaboration with health care providers, respecting agency regulations to ensure services associated with social care are approved regularly. 

        Besides the experience listed on my enclosed resume, I enjoy working with people and I am known for continually putting forth effort to go beyond expectations when it comes to service, timeliness and accuracy. I am proficient in operating computers, working independently and communicating with a team. I am also encouraged by the possibility of continuing my career, living and working in fields whereby the needs of patients are met. I believe that my variety of skills has prepared me to excel in the field of social activist. I hope to hear from a member of your organization with regards to opportunities for me to excel in. 

Reflecting on my Life

As the tag holder of youth, I always had great ambitions; always seek for bringing change in the society. Always wanted to be different among my peer groups, always wanted to be the superhero, these attitudes motivated me to join this group. Sitting in the class room with so-called privileged group, and the change maker of tomorrow The Social Work students whose voice can fight for other's rights are crying for themselves motivated me. Yes, I have to admit, the girl sitting beside me in my class room, rolls tear of pain every month during her menstruation cycle. I’m not talking about her physical pain because that is what out of my mind being a boy. Her pain and struggle to encounter me when i smile at her is my concern. Being a student of social work if she has such problem to share her pain to me; I never can imagine the condition of those women in rural and conservative society living with it. Sharing about reproductive health is far more than i can imagine. Yes, that pain of those women and girls motivated me to join this group. People rarely feel free to share about their reproductive health issue until and unless they get in any big trouble. I want to create the healthy environment through informal class and awareness so that next my younger sister will never go through that pain.

Mo­reover, HIV/AIDS, I don’t need to say how people perceive People Living with HIV/AIDS (PLHA) in our society. Their voice is always unheard in our society so despite of huge funds and programs we are not able to stop the stigma about them in our society. My determination to change the people attitude towards them is motivating factor to join this group. Likewise, in every walk of life while neglecting those issue we are also violating the human rights of those people and groups and that is my major concern.

I may seem more ambitious, flying in the air. Yes, I’m flying because change starts from self. Someone has to be different to make difference. It’s not that i didn’t raise my voice for those people & issue but my single voice loss in air and couldn't reach to the concern people and institution. My desperate search for like minded people like me is my motivation to join this group. Through this group, i will be able find nine more like minded people and also YALC will give the institutional support for us to work more effectively. Moreover, as per the criteria of this group, i think i’m eligible to join this group and make change in the society. Likewise, being frequent user of social networking site it always fascinates me so i believe to use it as the boom for social change and development. At last i will like to quote Oscar Wilde saying "I have nothing to declare except my genius".

Sincerely, 

Sagar Gyawali

Looking for Freedom through the Cage.

Life to me is search of Mosha, absolute Freedom. My life alter in its philosophy and action. I want freedom and my destiny is death where i can get full liberation, away from materialistic world, no cage, no roles, no responsibility, no love, no hatred, no gain, no earn but i'm afraid of it. I afraid when wind blows over me, death is far more to go. Is it the same with everyone or it just me who is looking for full freedom. Here I'm trying to reflect human life and their struggle through this dog on picture. Human life start with full freedom and end-up in four wall caged. In first picture, dog is alone-free without any chain. It is free to bark, run, drink, eat..whatever it want. In second picture, it is just above the ground and surround slightly by three side. Owner of its has expectation from it. It is living the life of responsibilities. Moreover, in third picture, It is chained at neck. It is forced to roam around only the distance of chain. It can't move according to its wish and desire. On last picture, It is totally caged inside metal frame, it is no more living its own life. It is living for its master. Life is very mysterious, we happy move from freedom to caged. 

My childhood days, when there was no boundaries for me.
I was free like cloud in sky, moving here and there. Enjoying the
whole world though my own view and sight. I was never caged. No one
ask me anything, no one order me anything, no one had hope from me, I had no one
to live for.

Hey, cloud here comes the mountain. You got stuck over here.
So I'm. As i grew up, people started looking me from different
angle. They started murmuring with themselves about my future.
Some see me as Doctor, some as engineer, some as Pilot. Different
people had different image of mine in their mind. They never thought
of my interest and my life. I am caged with the people expectation on me.
The cloud is no more cloud, its mass of water droplets waiting to fall. Waiting  for
me to admit. 

Moving Cloud got struck into mountain. And change its form
as water, drops-drops-and drops. Sorry, I'm changed, I'm not the
same which you saw me before. Now not only my parents & relatives,
teachers, friends, love-mate started expecting from me. My roles has increased.
I'm not alone now. People tied my hands and asking me to do handful of works. My
happiness is not mine. I'm enjoying for someone else. I'm enjoying as Son of parents,  boy
of my girl, students of teacher, friend of friends. Am I really happy, Does this happiness count
for me. I'm confused. I'm surround with responsibilities and duties. I'm caged. I can move but not far as i want.

Here comes me, as the water of ocean. Free moving cloud ended
with the still water. Here we are, we human being and so I'm. I'm totally
caged with my selfish desire, materialistic world, love, hatred, gain and loss.
I can't breathe the air of mine because I'm living for else. I can't see dream of mine because
I'm  fulfilling dream of else. I can't see of mine, I have become sight for else. Here I'm with  pain,
hatred for myself. I'm no more I. Parents, Wife, Children, Relatives, Friends,  and Society has expectation from me.
They want me to do for them and be happy for them. This is what i lived for.This is what i called myself as the living being with dead soul.

November 20, 2009

By my birth, I have given tag of so-called social animal. No one asked me and they won't. I am so confused, Am I happy to be the most intelligent creature of the world? I hope i never get answer of it because i will never dare to search it out. Love, the most unsatisfactory thing of the world. We want more and more. Love of mother, parents, siblings, relatives, friends and so on. Love from such a big circle of people will meant nothing when we got into so-called love of today's generation. The love between girl and boy. I don't know, Did love had same definition in those ancient days as today. The love of a girl-boy has power to pull down the love of whole universe. This is what i see in most of my generation fellows. I may be exception. I fail to do it. Yes, I fail to love you more than my family, relatives and my own social groups. Yea, I do admit that it was me, who left your hand in air. And it was not my choice and it won't be either. I'm not a man. I can't break the barrier for you. But from bottom of my heart i love you, with the coldness of hands i miss you, with the electro signal of my mind i care you. All my care and affection towards you can't prove that how much i love you until and unless i bring guts to hold your hands. I know i can't. I'm coward. I afraid to lose my family and so-called social groups bonds. It’s not your fault that we are apart. I know you are still growing the hope of being together, knowing that it’s near to impossible. I'm love triangle between my heart, mind and society. I can only say single word to you - "sorry" but I'm not a betrayer.